I feel my anger filling me up again because everything is just so unfair
How much do I sound like a teenager right now?
I want to write why I am angry but it’s not just one thing… it’s the little things… like the house being a constant mess, and it’s not just because of the kids, my husband seems to be okay with living in a sty as well. I am getting sick of picking up after everybody. At least if it was my house I would be able to do it later but now I have the added pressure of my mum or my dad nagging about everything dirty the entire time. And they don’t nag me, they expect my husband to clean up… which deep inside I know is fair because he is the one that leaves the coke cans and the laundry everywhere but for goodness sake DON’T TELL HIM THAT! If you do he’ll hate you more… and if he hates you more then he’ll hate me more…. he’ll be in a grumpy mood for the next 6 months… even the slightest thing will make him hate everything even more and then I would have to compromise more and more until I get exhausted and get angry and then the kids would cry and then the kids would hate me and run to their dad….. who was the one who started this all in the first place!!! So I conclude that this is entirely my parents fault for ruining my life.
So…. there it is… my reason for anger….. it’s the little things that make you realise how controlled your life is.
Just you know …. I just need to hang on for like 20 more years till my kids are old enough to move out and then I’ll leave him …
Just hang on for 20 more years… then you can ask your parents to forgive you.
Just 20 more years.
I don’t have much hope for our counselling session because it is just how my life works.